There are many difficult factors to this Christian life, many of which are opposed to our natural human inclinations. For instance, it’s hard to pray when you have a million different things on your mind. But Christianity says that when we take a moment to pause and pray, we’re better equipped to handle those things bouncing around in our brains. Christianity is, by its very essence, so subversive to our human nature.
I struggle with many things dealing with Christianity, but there is one factor in particular that messes me up every time a hard season comes along.
Christianity calls me to be faithful.
I admit, I like it when I’m in control of things. When I share my artistic vision for projects, I love when I get to handle every aspect of it, because I have control issues. I’ve gotten better with it over the years, but my tendency to want control over things is seeping into the way I live out my Christian faith.
I’m in middle of a busy season right now: publishing my first book soon, planning a wedding, and trying to stay above water with my seminary work. I have many things on my plate, but in my human thinking, I would feel better about the tasks at hand if I had the ability to accomplish all of them within my own ability. [Read more...]